family

family to me doesnt involve blood family is the people around you who you can see and feel and trust to be there in your time of need who will always have your back who when no one else can understand will be able to without words the people you love trust and can argue fight and yell and cuss each other out but at the end of the day you know you still love them but in the flipside they can also break you and hurt you but the true real family will be there even if its not convenient for them they will drop everything and help you no matter what it is

my newest writing

beauty

alright so this writing is hella important

to me true beauty is the ones who show their struggles and know that they have them yet they dont agree with me to me cutting is one of the most beautiful things in the world it shows what you go thru and you can wear those struggles to me thats perfection to me thats being 💯 real to me they are the best people in the world you dont have to have the best clothes the most friends the fancy cars nor the money being true and real to yourself and those around you is beauty and perfection to me i trust them more then anyone ik they wont bull shit me or lie to me or be fake with me and i have huge respect for those who cut and personally ik im too scared to cut or walk around with cuts on me that i did to me and yea i may hate it when i see the ones i love cutting but yet i cant solve everything and to those who i love and care who cut just know im here fighting the battle you are im by your side thru the ups and downs and i wouldnt wanna fight any battle with anyone but you guys i got so much respect for you and ik i couldnt do what you guys do and i wont put you on spot but know if you see this i do love and care for you guys so keep your heads up theres a light at the end and im going every step and every painful moment with you and ill carry you if i need and smile when you smile and laugh when you do and ill cry when you cry cause i feel your pain and im here till the end with you ok i love and respect you guys so much keep fighting cause as long as im alive im fighting with you and for you

so i was asked to do a writing on weed and ik that alot of people say they are addicted and this is where my twist comes in your mind can handle so much yet not it can break down from the simplest errors in my opinion you arent addicted to anything nor will you ever be addicted to anything saying your addicted to something is a pussy ass excuse for not manning up and saying yea i choose to do this with weed in my opinion weed will never be a drug nor is it anywhere close to a drug weed is actually a herb you go to iran or afghanistan and that shit grows in the wild and in my opinion the only reason the us says weeds a drug is cause all of the problems we have from them weed plants can actually grow perfectly fine in the wild in the us and actually grow alot better its just not native to here and with the addiction part and smoking weed or cigs its all bout how you take care of yourself like with me i smoke weed and cigs and i can still go run 8 miles after smoking a couple of cigs and most people think that things they do they have to do cause its life or death but in all reality life or death is when you have no other options of survival you can go without weed you just have to tell your mind repeatedly that you dont need it thats where mental strength comes in you have to be able to channel your thoughts and dont get me wrong all the shit they put in weed and cigs may cause you to think your addicted but thats the placebo effect talking and you listening to your weakness and most people will disagree with me but thats my opinion ik personally what can be the outcome but you yourselves have to test my theory on both of them and start out small people always say baby steps is the best and in life it is really

im country af but appearances dont mean shit the saying dont judge a book by its cover very true cause my appearance i dress athletic or like a "pretty boy" your true identity and how you will find out who someone is comes from their state of mind and their heart the choices they make for me i could go without ever stepping ina store for meat eggs and vegetables and fruits id rather raise chickens the eggs are better for you homegrown hunting isnt something i just do its me and always will be me i can keep a freezer stocked for less than it would to go buy meat at a store and i love gardening and growing things so before you say you know that person do you really know them ? ask yourself that and challenge the people around you start sorting thru the fake people it just takes a question someone real will tell you anything you want to know a fake person will get angry and nervous when a topic thats sketchy with them comes up and will try to avoid it but it starts with you and wanting more from life 

one thing alota people dont understand is no one can ever make you do anything they dont make choices for you only you can they can persuade you and influence you but at the end of the day you choose what you do and lifes full of choices and not really wrong choices either but in my opinion no one ever considers the reprocussions the consequences and consequences arent negative nor positive they are neutral always they are the outcome of what you choose and you can always choose what you want but be ready to man up and deal with the consequences and theres always consequences i think thats why our society is the way it is not many people weigh your consequences and think bout them you can do and be what you want but half the battle is dealing with those choices in life and our society not many people think as their ownself they choose to listen to others around them no one challenges anyone and what they say or think no one stands up for what they truly believe in your mind can get you a long way by itself but you have to start by standing up for what you believe in mark twain puts this best courage isnt hiding your fear its being able to recognize it and master it for the better of others but know its still there at the sametime meaning i believe alota people make choices not to stand up cause their scared of what people think of them for defending someone getting bullied at school or homosexuality and bisexuality like my friend Gabriella Esparza asked my opinion for tonight one voice can make a difference but you have to choose to master that fear and want to understand it truly and alota people will get mad at me for this but your mind goes to the first thing it thinks of and thats anger when you dont understand something or comprehend something you have to be able to recognize those emotions and sort thru them if you believe in something then choose what you believe in if someone truly is real they will understand why you did that but it starts with you always and how you choose to handle it but thats my opinion and life is full of choices just choose wisely

yea im prolly gonna get shit for this cause im a guy but in all honestly no human is the same no matter how much society tries to stereotype them and classify them but newest write is most people think they understand guys for the most part its pretty easy most guys fit in one category but dont get to arrogant on how you throw that category around most guys fall into the category of sex addicts its all bout sex and granted guys put that label on themselves but the thing that gets most people is how quick people just classify another guy as thirsty or just wanting sex cause of past relationships but cause of one bad apple doesnt mean you cant keep that idea but with every new guy you meet and talk to put that thought in a curious and thoughtful distance away so you can know what his tricks are but giving someone the chance and putting away stereotypes are the first way to truly see what someone is like if you go around and stereotype everyone your just building a wall to block peoples true identity away and its cause your too scared to believe that its possible that some people are different then the ignorant people from that gender have made them out to be but it goes both ways in all honesty its heavily biased but still has enough equality to sway to the other side men arent the only ones that can fit a category alota men do the sametime that women do to men like me personally i think being able to lower your guard enough to truly get to know someone will honestly change alota the shit that happens in this world with young teenagers these days and young adults and by no means am i saying be disrespectful that wont get you anywhere like is it that hard to be a gentlmen or lady and just start a conversation with hey or a hey how you doing or hey with a lil compliment but not over doing it and not everyone is thirsty its definitely easy to know whose out for sex and whose out to make friends by the whole way they type and the verbage they use but thats my opinion

in my opinion lifes a thinking mans game and you can play it anyway but the thing in life theres no winners there maybe successful and the less fortune but the ultimate key in life is happiness and most people dont realize that money wont buy happiness happiness is the best euphoric emotion you can get other than adrenaline to me the happier you get and continue to find happiness the easier life will be but you have to be able to think and depict if your truly happy doing what you do and the people who find their true happinese are the ones who are truly successful but you have to think bout and analyze your life at every change of events and see if your getting close to happiness or if its the same result youve been getting then you should try different things to find happiness

For most people who don’t know me, I’m going to give you some background information on me.  My life has been nothing but trials and overcoming mistakes while creating new ones along the way.  Yeah you may say well that’s everyone, and I agree that is everyone.  Everyone has their own story their own trials, mistakes and journey, but how many people truly try to overcome their past? Yeah people say they moved on from the past, but what truly is moving on from the past? To me moving on is you don’t forget what you did and went through, but yet you use that a fuel and motivation to chase your dreams.  Forgetting what you went through to get to where you are now is like forgetting who you are as a person.  Your brain will forget things by itself at a young age, but that’s from the inexperience to be able to understand and comprehend it.  At a young age it’s more learning your surroundings, learning what life is like for a child.  As you grow and mature more not only physically but mentally, you start to be able to endure things.  You are able to truly test yourself mentally.  Granted everyone can test themselves physically.  You can’t possibly go a day without.  Yeah you can try to come up with examples to argue that you, but I will be able to answer and argue your examples right away.  When you start to mature and grow mentally is the real test.  Moving on from things in the past is one of the hardest ways to test yourself mentally.  Moving on is owning what you did.  It’s easier said than done, but using positive self-talk is the start.  If you can start to get in the habit of when things get hard or tough for you that you set goals and start telling yourself that you can accomplish them, is where you start to learn what you can truly endure.  Looking back on all the things you have down going through your life no matter your age and being able to realize the mistakes you made is the starting point to moving on.  No one is perfect in anyway.  Everyone has made mistakes somewhere down their journey.  Recognizing them is where the mentally mature standout.  Every day I think about how if I wouldn’t have made that one mistake that was the result of me sending myself to placement, where would I be?  Taking ownership for those mistakes is when you realize that, no matter how much you messed up in the past, without doing that you wouldn’t be where you are today.  The world around us moves to fast for you to dwell on things, dwelling is going to put you too far behind and resulting you to be left out.  There’s a difference between dwelling and thinking.  Dwelling is prolonged thought on your mistakes and thinking you’ve messed up too much.  Thinking is being able think even if it’s for long periods of time, but you know that you aren’t too far gone, yet that you are right where you should be in life.  It doesn’t take hours to think about what you have done, it could be the matter of minutes too.  Thinking is what keeps everyone rooted to something.  It could be an object or person or memory, but it will keep you from thinking you are too perfect for what happens around you.

Why should we promise anything to anyone?
It lies in communication promising things is a way to build trust the most prevalent and the most easily noticed as the human race we need trust to go anywhere in life.  for example if you can’t trust a significant other then why are you dating her or if you can’t trust a simple explanation from a friend then why are you hanging with them the human mind is so complex that you need to take a break and look at the things you do in life cause you could ultimately ruin everything on my status asking if anyone had any suggestions to why we trust people and my friend brought up a really good point he said not to promise anything because our world is so corrupt yes i can agree with him on that and i will argue both sides of this argument and our world wouldn’t be so corrupt if people would throw their word like it was money meaning people don’t just go throwing your word around because you can talk your words and what you say are 1000000 times more important and valuable and precious then money or other material things will and the reason no one trust anyone anymore is cause people just throw whatever words they can to make someone believe them when they still won’t do it or to impress someone they like but if you really think about it money is re printable loosing trust from too many lies from throwing your words around like crazy that takes years to rebuild you can’t just reprint what you say and make it better once that bridge is burned you have to and i mean have to work harder at it and if you really want to be friends or whatever with that person you will no matter how hard it is cause you never know where you will go in life and who you will meet and people you use to know could ruin things from a simple word you said or promise you broke granted small things like saying you’re not mad and promising they person saying sorry doesn’t have to say sorry but as long as you communicate the everything trusting and promises will have a whole new meaning and if you want my input on other things just message me and i will help as much as i can

a relationships breakdown is all communication that’s all it is if you can’t open up and vent to the person your dating then it’s not a relationship its friendship if you can’t express how you feel about something the other does in a respectful way you won’t have trust and you won’t have love ok yea everyone says they don’t know what love is but love is knowing that you can trust this person with your life and you would be perfectly fine cause you trust they would protect you and keep you safe love is knowing that no other person in the world makes you feel safe and secure and you would die without them this quote from the movie End Of Watch really goes with this "ask yourself if you can be without them if you have a tiny little yes then they aren’t the right person" ask yourself that and if the answers yes then they are just a friend granted yes friends can turn into significant others but you have to communicate with them and the more you communicate the more you trust the more you love the more time you will want to be with that person and the more you learn to love the smallest things about that person that no one else will and no one else will understand that’s why never listen to your friends cause they will say I don’t know what you see in them this is all a relationship is!!!!!! its communication all of the other things you want spawn from this being able to communicate people so try it you might like it ok

My Writing

in life to me i can be a kid at heart all i want and a good friend told me that just as long as i handle my responsibilities and ive been thinking bout that and how it ties into something else i think bout and both tie in very well and the thing i think bout is how can you tell when your grounded and not too arrogant ? to me arrogance is a key element in life social darwinism supports this social darwinism states that society is just survival of the fittest and the fittest are generally arrogant but surviving isnt all i wanna do i wanna live i wanna have fun thats what keeps me going to me setting goals is how i believe you can tell someone is grounded yea theyre gonna be arrogant but it will be to an extent good cause they will be handling their business being arrogant isnt necessarily bad as long as you recognize it and can control it being a kid at heart and wanting to have fun is what keeps me setting goals and in all reality is what keeps me grounded it keeps me in reality and level headed to be able to do what i want i first need to handle what i need to do to survive but thats just my opinion