What's Your Purpose:

How many of us have wondered why we are on this planet? How many of us have wondered why we live the life we live? How many of us have just wondered why? How many of us have wondered is this all life is? How many of us are just drifting? What even is life? Well to me just thinking about all of this is enough to leave someone dazed and confused so then what are we suppose to do ? our lives are set before we know for example like when we choose to do something our parents tell us not to do or like stepping on the grass when theres a sign that says stay off the grass we know we arent suppose to do it but yet we do we have made that choice to do that even before we realize it cause the end outcome is we did it regardless life is just a person drifting thru an endless period of time set up for them dealing with the consequences of the actions and choices and making choices and going on with those choices and decisions its an endless cycle so why do people regret doing something if you did it be proud cause you are living your life.  I mean i can tie it into this if someone is bullying you why get down? why feel like your worthless? why feed into what they want? its what they are made to do in their life so keep living yours and dont worry bout them now yea this sounds contradicting but its tricky yea you may say you have a choice to feel the emotions you feel but you dont they are self governed but you can alter your feeling and how they respond to how the rest of you life is so dont let your emotions dictate your life cause they arent what does your choices and actions now you can choose to let your emotions run your life but its not how your life is made so if someone is bullying you dont let your emotions dictate how your life is set up cause they are just a consequence not a choice so choose to say something back dont be timid dont be shy dont be scared. your life is yours so take it into your hands and choose to not be put down and run by people then see where your life takes you no ones set up to be perfect no ones set up as a god i mean if you were you wouldnt be walking around in this shit hole of an earth we all bleed the same so run your life find your purpose by branching out and seeing how different decisions work cause if its your purpose it will feel natural and it will come like youve done it all your life your purpose is preset so follow your purpose. also the things you do doesnt define you how you respond and act to the things and saying that people will throw at you does and how well you can handle criticism does. no one is set do go thru life the same way but the end outcome is death for everyone so why live with regrets live free in all aspects and see how much life gets show someone that doesnt like you or bullies you a side they dont know stand up for yourselves and see how they react and see how you feel from doing that.

Cheating.

whats the point of cheating ? like in all honestly what do you gain from it ? like you have a girl so why do you need another one ? why do you need more why do you have such a high value for lusting after women ? like if your girl is right by your side thru everything why would you put her thru everything that she doesnt needa go thru ? and ik i cheated once never again i saw how it shattered another human being and i just cant live with myself after that kinda shit and i still think bout how no matter what excuse i can think of it still doesnt make it right like i notice alota guys have some extremely gorgeous women and they cheat ? like how can you throw a diamond into a lake and walk back out of it with a rock thats all misshaped and disfigured from all the rounds all the guys have made with her ? why would you go to that girl when you know what shes bout and your girl told you she doesnt want you to talk to her i mean after a while people we have to start growing up after a while your gonna start getting to the age where you wanna settle down with a girl and start a family and turn her into your wife and alota guys dont realize how they have a keeper until its too late how they have a girl who will go thru hell and back with them and still stay by their side and be ready for hell to be over and come out on top of it like is it that hard to swallow your pride and know when your wrong i mean i hate having to admit when im wrong but if its for the better then why not swallow your pride and make shit right ? why not just let it go and accept that your girl is gonna be there for you more than your hoomeboys i mean ik too many guys who snitch a brother out to them to save their own ass but if your girls down and wont do that shit then why trade her for someone who wont even stay around after you all done fucking ? like is this society and generation that fucked up ? or are we just to scared to actually be true men and know when we fucked up and try and move on from the shit ?

Insecurity:

The definition of insecurity is: uncertainty or anxiety about oneself; lack of confidence.

That is one of the many things that teenagers face everyday, down to the simplest things as a guy getting up the courage to talk to a girl or a girl getting up the courage to talk to a guy.  Courage is something that can hurt ones life or help ones life, insecurity is the same way.  You can be insecure about loosing your boyfriend/girlfriend so in return you do everything in your power to keep them, but the catch is for it to work is they have to feel the same way and be the same way.  People think that insecurity is an ugly thing and something that is bad but even insecurity has beauty to it too.  The beauty in it is how you have so many fears and problems "insecurities" and you know that you do and you can accept them you can face them and make them known, you recognize them, you work on them, and you fight them daily.  You make people feel wanted, you make people feel loved, you make people know that you can't go a day without them.  Insecurity among the many problems people have with themselves has beauty along with many wonders if you can get over it.  It's not going to be easy but with the right person you can do it, and when you do things will go far, fast, and good for you.

in life its a learning lesson everyday you should learn something even if its as simple as learning who is there for you and who you can trust and who you cant trust but you should learn something everyday you should learn a new experience and learn a new lesson you should strive to obtain knowledge every chance you can it will help you later in life and will be your best aspect it will help you pave a future and it will help you chase your dreams it will show you what life can be about and what it cant be about its always gonna be something that is filled with struggles daily fights and experience and knowledge you can always pick up on and use later in life its made to help you at every cost you can think of.

Death isn't welcome.

Alota people don't realize how death affects everyone. Death is one of those things that even if you didn't know the person who died you still grieve and feel bad. It hits home with certain emotions we don't feel everyone. It's the kinda pain that never goes away. It's the feelings of not knowing where the ones who died could have gone. It's the feeling of not having the special people you love around when they die. It makes you stop and think bout the ones who you love. It brings up "what if" questions no one wants to think bout. It has the certain toll on everyone cause it makes us realize how we are just mere minute things compared to the things in this universe. It makes us be true to the ones we love. Death isn't something everyone wants to see their loved ones go thru. But it does bring beauty to things and bring caring people who try to hide it out. It brings people together. Ik I didn't know you but RIP Emma. I can tell everyone who knew and loved and cared bout you are broken far worse than anyone can truly see. From everything I see on here you had some true friends who hate what happened. #RIPEmma. 

Candles and memories.

Some people come and go and some people you just don't wanna let go. Some things are hard to face. And most things like those I always face. But having to face that we can't date is one of the harder things to face. I was never mad around you. I was always happy and smiling. Staying up late and watching movies until we both slept the remainder of the night away. Locked in each other's arms. Cuddling up next to each other warming the others heart. Waking up and seeing you laying next to me only made it 10 times more of a treat. It seems like life has a way to pull the best things right away. Now those can only be but of memories I'll always keep. Like the seasons come and go our time has packed up and left the show. Maybe one day down the road we will meet up for a different show. But in that time I'll be the first to know. That I'm not gonna let you go. We will laugh and dance and cuddle on into the nights mysterious glow. Only the light of the moon will show. As lovers reconnect the first nights memories will surely flow. Relighting that lost candle and making it glow but only this time it will be the brightest off all that show.

Choices.

"In life some choices we make and then some choices make us"

- from "If I Stay"

And by that it means sometimes you make decisions for yourself and some where made just by the nature of being who you are and the people that are involved in it. Some choices that make you can be special talents. And some can just be as simple as you see a girl and you know deep down that you're gonna marry her. In life never regret the choices you make and the ones that make you. Cause in the end they both smooth the other out. Life works in mysterious ways and sometimes we don't understand why life is like this. But if we grit down an push thru it we always will overcome what ever is thrown out way. Have a good day everyone. And remember sometimes we gota take the first step. 

Failure.

Failure. 

Failure is an everyday thing. No one is perfect and no one is the best at everything. If you fail you have to get up and shake it off. Then brush off the bruises and try again. With being human you are going to fail and you are going to make mistakes. It's how you react and respond after it that makes you a better person. And ik some people are afraid to fail but if you don't fail then you won't gain experience and won't learn from those things. The whole point of failing is to know that you can always do better. Failing is like eating. If you fail you have to try again. If you're hungry you gota eat again. Failing requires effort and determination. Cause if you fail and aren't determined and have the effort to try again then your giving up and quitting. And if you're gonna quit after you failed then why did you do it. ? I mean you aren't gonna go do something and automatically know you're gonna be the best at it. So there already you know you have the chance to fail so use that negative side of it and turn it to a positive and use it as motivation to become the best at it. Failing is a negative and positive thing. It's negative cause it makes you think things that you don't normally think. And positive cause it could be your biggest motivation to become phenomenal at everything you do.

Suicide and its Effects.

Suicide and its effects. 

Well where to start to me suicide I don't understand it but I'm always attempting to understand it. If I'm writing bout it I must have some what of an understanding of it. Ok to me suicide spawns from bullying and/or low self esteem and lack of self confidence. To me suicide is one of the saddest things that has become of our society. Like how is anyone in the position to tell someone to go kill themselves. How is anyone in the position to tear families apart and make families broken. ? If you cut yourself to see the color of your blood it's the same as the person you told to kill themselves it's the same as their families and everyone else on this planet. But what makes you some overly cocky God to decide who and when they die. ? Suicide is a spawn from people lacking in feeling left out or labeled as the weird kid. People don't like to be judged or set off to the side as weird so in return people hide how they truly feel bout something to make it easy for them. But in the long run it isn't. Cause what happens if the person does kill themselves. ? Then knowing that you didn't do anything to help them makes it worse. No one should ever take their life just cause someone said they should and makes you feel like shit day in and day out. They aren't perfect no one is. If you look at them as person not from their social status but underneath all the cover ups they have created to hide their true selves you could do the same shit to them. But then your no better. Life is a very fragile thing so why flirt with the very existence that makes you human. Why fuck with people's emotions. ? Why push to them to break. ? Why not do it to someone who can handle it and give it back to you ten fold. ? Oh yea that's right cause being a coward is their strong suit. But people when will it click killing yourselves attempting it or even telling someone to do it doesn't make you cool nor popular. It makes you a coward and a person of a weak mind. So why. ? This is what I ask why kill yourself. ? And why give them what they want. ? Why back down to those people. ? Where's the ones who are strong enough to tackle more then just your load and help someone else stand up and fight back and show the "bullies" how they are. ? Just my thoughts.

Your Past Present and Future.

Overcoming your past:

Living in the past isn't good ever. It brings you down and prevents you from moving forward. You gota live life day to day, minute to minute, and hour to hour. Now when it comes to bullying. High school is gonna be the past one day. After high school no one is gonna remember you for what you where in high school 10 years down the line. The smart kids will 9 out of 10 times be the best off. And the athletes or "jocks" will most likely not be. With dealing with bullying you have to think of the positives like, are you gonna be a better person in life than the people bullying you. ? Are you gonna retaliate or be the bigger person and not let them affect you. ? Yes you can stand up for yourself but don't sink to their level. How are you gonna fair off. ? Are you gonna let your past and let bullies dictate your future. ? Just somethings to think bout. 

-Bully Free

Embracing My Struggles.

So yea I flirt, but who doesn't. ? Who doesn't long for someone who they know will stay by their side. ? Someone they can see all the time. ? Life's journey is long and tough. Finding someone who will endure life with me is also tough. I have been saying "life's tough, but happiness is harder", meaning that life doesn't just give you happiness it's something that you have to strive and fight for. I'm not gonna sit here and say I don't have my weaknesses, I just give it my all to hide them, but now I'm taking my advice and embracing them. The thing's I want most are the thing's I'm fighting for most. I want a significant other but I'm waiting instead of looking. I'm fighting my all to get back into college. For me sometimes I need to take a break and leave the area I'm in and clear my mind. Struggles make us stronger, but how strong do we need to be. Like I'm 19 feeling like I'm carrying and battling the world on my shoulders. A lot of the time I feel alone, but this year is a change. I'm not hiding my problems, I'm putting them out to see who accepts me and who talks shit bout me. Please comment and tell me what you think.

My Life.

So this writing is all about me, my past, my present, what I have overcome, and continue to on a daily basis. Alright so to the beginning. I was born in Three Rivers, Michigan on November 12, 1995 at 7:37pm; my birth name is Jason Tyler Maxson, but I go by Jason Matthew Graham. I was adopted at an early age. The age of this is unknown, like a lot of the things from my early years of my life. I do know that, I went straight to one family where i was adopted into the family. I was with that family from approximately 2-14, where at that age i was then again put into foster care, for the mistakes of others. I will explain more in due time. In the adoptive family i was harassed, bullied, picked on, you name it. Ok yea, you might say it was sibling rivalry, but consider this, it was seven siblings against me. I was harassed because I grew up working on a farm, i was harassed because I loved soccer, hunting, 4-H, and just the outdoors. I had no social life. I was devoted to the things that made me. I didn't have my first real girlfriend until 10th grade, other than that just small flings here or there. Growing up i had numerous nicknames, that i will keep undiscussed. High school where to begin with that? I will keep it short. Freshman year and sophomore year i didn't really go ever. I had no credits going into my junior year. The thing I am getting at now is, even though I had no credits i still graduated early. My graduation year was 2014. I graduated December 3, 2013. Not even a week later, i was enrolled and waiting to go to Western Michigan University. The greatest decision I have made so far, deciding to attend college. For those who are wondering, Western Michigan University is in Kalamazoo, Michigan. My point with this is, if you want something in life go get it. You can be anything in life, you just have to chase what you want. Never regret anything you have done, the choices and decisions you make are what makes you. Yes, I have history with the police, yes I have spent time in the back of cop cars, spent time in jail, and did some time in placement which is kid prison. Yes I know I have fucked up in the past, but hell no, I don't regret any of it. It has helped make me a better person. Never beat yourself down and tell yourself you can't do something in life, because I'm here to say you can do anything. Also never put up with bullying. It only makes it easier to bring yourself down.

Know The Meaning Of What You Say

Definition of a bully: A bully is a blustering, quarrelsome, overbearing person who habitually badgers and intimidates smaller or weaker people.  To simplify that, its saying a bully is someone who repeatedly an consistently harasses someone or a group of people.  Now I ask this, How many of you honestly knew that? How many of you went around saying the "word" bully, but didn't know the definition?  How can you call someone a "bully" and lets say you don't know the definition of a "bully".  Now you're to the point where you are saying it everyday, your intentions may to be to make it known, but if you don't know the meaning of things your speaking, then your being a bully yourself.   The point of this writing is to be able to spot bullies and to inform people of how they are when they speak things that they don't understand.  Now who can say that they are actually going to heave my advice?  If you say no, then don't even make yourself known unless you want to challenge my thinking, but then I hope you're prepared for the deepest and hardest argument you will have, also make sure you know your facts, because I will call out any change you make in your argument, if you plan to take my advice in and use it then comment, like, or share and tell me how you feel.  Now when it comes to bullies, yes anyone with common sense can tell when they see someone getting bullied, but here is the catch there is a huge difference between calling someone out and making it known how they are shady and two faced and bullying someone.  If you don't understand the definition of something, then common sense say's, don't say.  Because I know personally you're going to look and feel pretty dumb when you get called out and are saying things that you don't understand.  There comes a time when you actually need grow up and start thinking, meaning the older you get and the more you learn, the more you will affect people without seeing it.  Start thinking before you act or speak, because regardless of your intentions people don't see those right away, they see what their brain can process at that moment in time.  My point is know the things you say before you say them, point blank period, it's that simple.
Bully Free

Making Changes Around you

With the people around how much of what they say is valid? Meaning can you believe everything you hear? Can you trust everyone? I have been posting a lot of things about how the government is, but how trustworthy are your neighbors? Have you ever caught your neighbors peeking on the things your doing? A lot of people are naturally curious but there is a fine line between curious and nosey. How trustworthy are you so called "friends"? I hate to say this but even your family too. Now a days it's hard to trust anyone but the ones you can make sure you keep them around. Meaning make it known to them that once they burn you they are gone. There comes a time in life where you need to evaluate the people you surround yourself with. Are they helping you and making you better? Or are they only preventing you? The people you say love and care for you should be the ones who bring you up no matter what the expense is. They should be the ones who are fighting for and with you not against you. They shouldn't be constantly fighting and arguing with you. If they only argue with you and don't ever get your back and stand up for you then they're preventing you. when will you start making changes? It's a new year so start sorting through your friends and associates. What better time then now. 

- Jason Matthew Graham

Pain

pain:

what is it ? how do we handle it ? how do we stop it ? how do we prevent it ? how do we make it a means of management ? just questions the average person has when it comes to pain and pain is the very excense that gives us that human feeling for example you have phsyical pain emotional pain psychological pain phsyical is the standard shit i just shut my hand in the door type of pain which in time heals and we carry on but emotional pain the type of pain we all long to not feel its the pain we remember for extended periods of time its the pain we have to hurt our heart yet we feel it in our brain and our hearts its the kind we could be at a low point and the things that hurt us most can come back and add fuel to the fire and keep us going then psychological its the traumatic event pain i.e being raped abused bullied these pains are things you have to live with knowing the pain and hurt day in and day out they combine both of the previous pains and are the hardest on us mentally the ones we dont forget now to my point of this everyone longs for acceptance and to be loved and cared for so why can you make it known to someone who maybe their family isnt as far off and set as yours feel less than human ? how can you tell the person right next to you that their family hates them and continue day in and day out making them hurt and feel like shit and if he/she was to cut themself to where they bleed and you do the same you both bleed red their body is very similiar on the inside to yours so how are they different from you to be targetted ? put yourself in their shoes and look at what you do from their eyes to them would you appreciate it done to you ? would you feel loved and wanted ? would you feel accepted ? ik damn well you wouldnt so then why make another human that bleeds red like you do feel so unwanted and out of place to where they are scared to go in public knowing your out their and making them feel unsafe why do it now think bout this in the future you have kids and the same shit you put someone thru your kids go thru karma doesnt work immediately but if and when that happens karmas a bitch cause now your learning what it feels like having to deal with that petty bullshit now this if you wouldnt like it dont do it its time to start growing up people it really is

-Bully Free

The Use Of Propoganda

this country prides itself on the freedom of choice freedom of speech and so on and its also the first bill of rights but think bout this one with how much propoganda that our country uses do we really have the freedom of choice anymore ? like yea ok you have your own brain and can choose things for yourself but our government influences out everyday lives they influence what we buy what we want what we wear what we eat what we do just in general now think bout this one ok let me put it this way the human mind is drawn toward things we desire and want but also need with how advanced we are with technology and the drugs we can create and have already created the mind can easily be subdued and someone can honestly be under mind control the government can honestly brainwash people and turn them into their personal minions and an example is the military but not to that extent they use more aggressive present tactics by instilling fear into them they are under contract and oath and have huge reprocussions if they go against their contracts and the military can do whatever tf they want to show why not to break contracts whose to say we dont have actually brainwashed people so drugged just waiting for the single to start killing people that pose a threat to the government and ok yea you say you know people but do you really ? do you know what they say or do or think behind closed doors and windows ? now think bout this in all reality no ones safe but if there was a way out would you be able to stand up and actually take the chance to make your own safety ? just more thoughts

- Jason Matthew Graham 

Warning and Preparation

in my opinion people dont understand the very excense of life and how fragile it is for example if you think bout the government the government is very fragile it requires alot of maintainence it needs a certain amount of people to keep it running at full profiency it needs to have the "checks and balances" to regulate everything so many things go into it now think bout the human body and the life of an average person the body needs food water sleep exercise and so on it has the excretory system to regulate its maintainence and the brain does too now think bout this people can kill people look at the military look at murderers look at private military firms who kill for money and yes they have those and yes everyone will die one day but who can honestly say that with this understanding of how fragile our very existence is can kill someone if it was life or death could you kill that person ? could you live with knowing you killed another human ? could you sleep at night ? could you continue life ? some will say yes but do you understand how hard that will be ? now i ask all of this to say i fear that our country is ona fast track to civil war i fear that our country is at a very tragic and fearful turning point how many people think bout everyday living and simple things that could be simple warnings for example the movies "The Purge" and "The Purge 2 Anarchy" could this be a warning that shits going to hit the fan ? or music for example the song Team by Lorde have you actually just listened to the words ? or this how our government hides and lies bout monitoring phone calls and what not why do they need to lie and say its for our safety ? arent we safe already ? the air force has predator drones and fighter jets that monitor our borders day and night if were "safe" as they say then why do those simple things ? or is it they know things we dont ? they are arming simple police officers with fully automatic assualt rifles why do police need those ? arent we safe like the government says ? have you thought bout how simple things we dont show interest in arent that simple and are actually very alarming and surprising ? now the question is if it comes down to it can you stand up for yourselves and what you believe in ? can you stand up to actually fight for this false sense of freedom we have right now and actually free yourselves of these monitary mental and physical barriers that are set on us by force ? when its time can you protect your loved ones ? just some things to consider with it being a new year

-Jason Matthew Graham 

Stand Up To Bullying

so we are 4 days into 2015 and dont change who you are but think bout how you approach things are you ythe type to just watch and stand by when someone gets bullied ? do you stick your nose up and act your too good to interven and stop it ? do you think your a god compared to them ? do you think that your untouchable ? well news flash anyone and everyone can be bullied and most people are good at hiding it and acting like it never happened just by you standing up for someone and helping them out thats one person your showing that cares for them and yea you might get the chance to be bullied but step up to them and put the bullies on blast you can show that even they are at a low people can say theyre gonna do all of this but you gota do it to stop bullying you gota act upon the desire to stop bullying even if its helping the person out and being a friend and showing them you care but its gota come from you and only you

-Bully Free

Be Yourself

most white males from age 12-17 are a shame to their older counterparts and shit ass influences for their younger counterparts and yea ik i had my ups and downs but i mean your fucking white stop dressing in clothes 2-3 times your size have you seen how fucking retarded you look like god damn lets make more ignorant people in society by letting your dumbasses have kids but my message to you socially derranged white males ages 12-17 is YOU DO NOT HAVE TO FUCKING LIE JUST TO FUCKING KICK IT WITH PEOPLE YOU ARE 5'6" WEIGHING 160 POUNDS AND DO NOT FIT IN 3XL CLOTHES WEAR THE RIGHT SIZE AND PEOPLE WONT AT YOU RETARDED ITS NOT SOULJA BOYS ERA ANYMORE LEARN THE STYLE OF SOCIETY NOW

Stop Bullying

so everyone has heard the phrase "sticks and stones may break my bones but words cant hurt me" but in all reality words are the worse form of bullying when people call you all sorts of names and continue to do it thats what makes people think it makes people think that your really dont like them it makes people feel worse cause your actually making it known your disapprove or are disgusted in someone yea theres more types but the other kinds aggressive bullying shoving and pushing and knocking shit out doesnt make people know why your doing it cyber bullying is also very bad too cause your publically making it known to where millions can see or hear what you think but words cut deeper than anything especially around the time of middle school where everyones hitting puberty and searching for acceptance so think twice before you say something jokingly and think if the person its targeted toward knows your joking you could be the one person who saves someones life just by thinking

-Bully Free

Stay True To You

with new years everyone says new year new me but why change who you are ? why change what your bout ? why change the very existence of what you do ? going thru life dont ever change stay thru to one thing stay thru to you show people that lifes not making yourself fit to society its you making society fit to you meaning if you have to change your friends change your hang out places spend this time of year thinking how to better yourself making goals to do something better this year make it bout showing the world you can do anything you want set your mind on accomplishing things make a list of what your gonna do make steps to accomplish those goals but never change what makes you and dont change character if you gota re write your script and go from there make 2015 a year to remember make it a year to make new friends a year to succeed mentally and physically make it a year to just be what you dream of and shoot for the stars and keep striving and dont stop striving

Actions vs. Words

one thing alota people dont understand that i think they dont understand is "actions speak louder than words" and i feel like our generation has fallen off from like if you say your gonna do it then follow thru if you can talk shit thru a screen then do it dont just talk bout it be bout it like yout words all you really have thats truly yours so back it up by following thru on it if you say your gonna do something then do it and ik alota things are easier said then done but when you say something and actually do it people will trust you more saying things and then doing those things help people one believe you and two trust you then too cause they see your not all talk like anyone cause make up a story that they can do but doing it makes you a better person too try it you will see the difference and it may be good or bad but it will show you alot too bout the people around you and how they react to your actions

What Is Life Truly?

life:

whats the purpose ? what am i suppose to do in life ? why was i created for life ? is life really that valueable ? is life important ? questions im yet to answer for myself but life whats the true point to it ? many people call life a game but i wouldnt call life a game cause if its a game then we are all a joke cause so many people dont take life serious and to me games are a serious matter and thats my competitive edge speaking and my athletic side speaking and social darwinism states lifes the survival of the fittest so that would make life serious and not a game some say its pointless but yet you go thru life everyday so your searching for something some say its just another day and another year but to me life is a mystery we dont know what the next day brings to me its a dream cause we really can be anything and everything to me life is one thing that has everything cause everyone and everything i love are in my life life doesnt need all these labels it just needs you and for you to make it you life is existence for a world and life we want so why take your life ? if you feel hurt or threatened theres ways and things to take care of that but taking your life hurts others so why is it important cause it has everything it has me and it has you but you gota try and ik ill meet you 50/50 and help out if you want and need it